The past couple of days have been gloomy. Cloudy, showery, just plain ick. When the weather on Mondays is ugly, it tends to limit my oomph to do anything. Instead, the gloominess of the morning without the sun makes me dwell on the worries in my heart. More importantly, since Monday is my technical day off, having little motivation to do anything constructive really smashes my motivation for the coming week.
From the time I was in high school, Mondays were always my favorite day of the week. There is just something about starting a new week with a blank slate – you have the opportunity to make an impact on the lives of the people around you, and staring at an empty whiteboard or a cleared weekly calendar on a Monday morning gives me, at least, the motivation to get things done.
But Monday, it was ugly.
Forcing myself to do even the smallest household chore was difficult yesterday morning. And it wasn’t that I wanted to spend all day sitting in front of the television watching the programs I DVR’d. The outside dampness and grayness of the skies just overwhelmed every ounce of motivation in me to do anything.
Eventually around midday, I kicked myself into gear. The recycling was piling up, so I thought I could least go to the recycling center to drop off newspapers and commingles. Putting the recycling containers in the car, I realized that I should go off to the bank and cash a check I received the week before. So I went back into the home office and got the six dollar check ready for the bank. Driving down River Road to the recycling center, I figured that since the day was so darn gloomy, I would go to the supermarket and get a couple of things to make soup, namely sweet potato and split pea soup. All I needed to fill out this soup was celery and vegetable broth since I had everything else back home. And when I arrived back at the house, I thought it would behoove me to place a grocery order with Amazon Fresh since my fridge is basically empty, minus a few cartons of tofu, bagged spinach, and almond milk (that is really all I have in my refrigerator since I scheduled my Amazon Fresh delivery for Wednesday).
Then I was off to the races, so to speak. I started cleaning and straightening out room after room while listening to SiriusXM’s The Message on the radio. Bedding was changed, floors were vacuumed, and furniture was dusted. By the time I finished, it was around 5:15 pm. But I started to work on some items that needed to get done for this week for St. Matthew’s. In fact, for the first time in a long time, I’ve created a “Week Plan” that lays out a church to do list and requires me to check off everything before Saturday night ends. Even though I started Monday without any motivation to do anything except worry, something in my mind kicked me into gear.
Oh, I think I forgot to write it above – right before I kicked myself into gear, I prayed. There are a lot of things that are heavy on my heart, but I’ve kept them to myself. I fear for a lot of things and it causes my spirit to waver. Yes, even pastors have troubled hears. As I worried yesterday morning, a verse from James came to me:
Is anyone among you in trouble? Let them pray. Is anyone happy? Let them sing songs of praise.
James is reminding us that in all situations, our lives are connected to God, whether in sadness, trouble, worry, fear, gladness, happiness, or joy. We are people of the Lord Almighty, created in His likeness to serve Him by serving others. We are holy people, not because we are so great, but because Jesus was and is great on our behalf. So whether fighting bouts of fear or living in amazing happiness, we are connected to God.
So, I prayed.
And He answered.
OK. Maybe I didn’t “kick myself into gear.” What I needed was a reminder of who I am to God. That no matter the struggles or joys of this life, I am a child of God, and He loves me beyond all measure.
And thus, though it started out glum, my Monday was good.
Tuesday, while outside it continues to be gloomy, is going to be a great day.
This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it!